12.29.2011

ciao! tijuana.



If you know me or have been following my blog for some time now, you might be aware that I have a slight obsession with Edie Sedgwick. You see, my obsession didn't just emerge because she made a come back and became a trend some years ago. I am inspired each day by the way her outlook on life was. She was very risk taking with fashion for one. In my case, I can't quite take as many risks as she did because well, I am a guy and I like being one and dressing accordingly to my gender, however I have transgressed more and more with my personal style and appearance as the years have gone by. Not going to lie, I used to be your typical preppy boy that would not wear a piece of clothing that didn't have a visible logo such as American Eagle, Abercrombie, etc. As time went by and my interest towards fashion grew more and more, I decided to develop more of a personal style. I remember, the first thing I said goodbye to in my old wardrobe were all my tennis shoes and later on t-shirts and those torn flare jeans that the Gap used to sell in the early 2000's. At the same time, I have to admit that it is a little difficult to be such an Avant Gardien in the city that I live in, needless to say the conservative household in which I currently live in.

In other words, I am days away from starting a new chapter in my life.. chapter? what am I saying, starting a new book in my life is what I meant to say. Next week I will be moving to Mexico City to start a new career, new life, and new everything pretty much. Sometimes I stop and think to myself if I am making the right decision. This is something that terrifies me deeply because believe it or not, at my young age, I have made quite a handful of bad decisions already and I really hope this isn't another one to add on to the list. What has me very determined I think is the mindset that I have which is "okay, time to get your shit together." Not everyone has a second chance in life and I guess this is something that I should feel very fortunate about. The detachment from my family is going to very very tough I know for a fact because there isn't going to me anymore mom to cook for me, or dad to give me money whenever I want, or little sister to argue with, or older brother to party with, I am on my own now. Something about myself that eases a little stress is that unlike Edie that wasn't able to handle the extremities of a new city [NYC], I have many goals that I want to achieve while being at my new city. Saying goodbye to my friends is going to be extremely difficult as well because they have been like a second family to me, so I am really hoping that Mexico City welcomes me warmly with its arms wide open. For now that is all.

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